[29] simple pleasures.

           

As an ate, nothing beats seeing your baby brother grow and mature in his own kulit way. my brother and i, one can say, are so TIGHT BONDED. Had our age been closer, people would actually think we’re twins (i am 6 years older than him!) or we’re a couple! Hah! Well, last December he just turned 12. isang dosena ka na, i used to kid around the house days before his birthday. that’s pretty big a deal for him because he doesn’t look like someone who’s 12. he’s so binata na.

 aside from making ligaw na, i was so surprised when sometime last week, he suddenly asked me if i could give him books as presents for his graduation day. I was like, “are you for real? Books? Hello! Computer games equals your life. Your psp equals your food. Books!?”

Well that’s what I told him. But deep inside I was jumping with glee for I am a self-confessed bookworm myself. I live and survive because of books. I honestly think that in my other lifetime, I am Julia Quinn… Or Sandra Brown. Whichever. And hearing my brother starting his track on the same hobby makes me beam! One of the best feelings ever.

So the moment i set my foot on the nearest mall, I bought kagad books na pinapabili niya (even if I was broke that moment; this is why I love credit cards).

These are our generations book report things, but hell, i am making sure that my brother would complete the whole book report set all my grade school classmates have read.

i’m so giddy.

and  excited.

[28] me being so Freudian

 

in denial

Since I am not doing anything (I do not have the heart  to study. Not now), I decided to browse around my phone — look for old messages and stuff. I stumbled upon my sent items folder and guess what, it was bursting out of messages. 1228 sent items baby! I checked the date of the oldest message and it was 04 December 2009. And hello, 3rd of February 2010 na ngayon!

So there wala lang. I remember Freud’s theory. Like I am someone who’s afraid to throw things away. That I tend to have problems when it comes to “expulsion” for I do not feel comfortable casting things away. Same is true with e-mails, I guess. I never delete e-mails.  Or if I ever do, those are e-mails from people  I kind of don’t like.

Here’s where an OC person comes in. Yay! I am proud to be one. I was smirking before when we discused OC-ness in our Psy101 class, and I was like “it’s so OA naman to fix your things muna for 5 hours before you can proceed to studying”. But guess what lovers, I’ve noticed just lately that I do fix my stuff around 2 hours before I could start studying. Shucks, close to being super OC na. Oh well, at least I’m still on the semi- level yet.

By the way, SPEED  elections fast approaching my calendar  (yeah, I’m running for position). Just thinking about it makes me nervous. The hell.

Okay, whatever happens, I’m good.

Okay then.

(Talk about convinvcing yourself, Kat!)

[27] something went wrong.

so alaska lost in their game against burger king. i can’t say my ususal thing like “i dunno what  happened blah blah blah” because i perfectly know what did. LARRY WAS ONLY ALLOWED TO PLAY BY COACH TIM CONE DURING THE FOURTH QUARTER!

okay, i know that was so mababaw a reason to be the cause of their loss. but that’s what i would like to believe.

on a serious note though, the whole game was utterly frustrating. it wasn’t tenorio’s best day in the court, and obviously not of the team’s as well. it’s just that nobody stepped up in a game very crucial as that. blasted whopppers, my aces had a hard time in the court because of ‘em.

negativity aside, the aces are still on the top spot and i guess that’s pretty a good sign for this conference. i just started making subaybay on PBA so i have no idea yet how things (or rules,whatever) go. two rounds of eliminations and stuff, those kind of things.

i’m still depressed they lost (yucks, OA). i blame larry’s absence. he did well last game, and i’m looking for a very good and acceptable reason why coach tim didn’t include him on the first part of the game. i very well know he isn’t one of the first five (bench! bench! bench!), but he  could’ve contributed much had he been there na during the second, third quarters.

take note, during the fourth quarter (when larry was in na) the aces stepped up! they did, for goodness sake! when larry was there. so you see, he’s a crucial factor.  

so there. i’m getting addicted again.

[26] what is chemistry for?

it’s made for me to fail. yes, i am ranting once again.

i don’t understand the point  of studying this subject coz i cannot, in any way, imagine myself applying this in my whatever-future-work will be. i am so bitter, i know. but then again, who the hell cares about how long one reaction  takes place or what the K-sub-c’s value is? no offense meant, dear chem majors, i really just have to release my odium.

had i known that chemistry is a requirement to finish bs psychology, i should’ve reconsidered taking the course. i am so going to deal with chem until 4th year just because we are a pre-med course DAW. okay then whatever.

not that i’m really failing chem. i actually (yes i am so proud of this) got a B last semester, which, upon looking at the state of affairs, is fairly good a grade already as compared to some of my classmates’ grades. problem is, i saw AB psychology’s program of studies (whatever you call it, it’s the list of all the subjects they have to take) and i got so jealous. really jealous. and for one main reason. they don’t have chem.

so upon realizing how unfair life is, and how i  (and the rest of the BS people) am positioned on the losing side, i suddenly wanted to make things even for me. i suddenly wanted to SHIFT! okay i’m kidding. i won’t give up on the BS track naman because, (1) this is an honors program and (2) i have already proven myself worthy to be part of the course. so yes, these two things make up the very thin thread where i am holding on right now. my only consolations. the pride of being in it.

chemistry, be gentle to me. please, please, please.

[25] never stisfied.

allow me to praise myself here. i am so loving the new look of my blog.  Haha. I was looking for books as header when I started (serious)blogging last year. But  my-not-so-patient self didn’t have time to go over the available themes around the site so I just chose some random girly design.

Luckily, as I was browsing around looking for the reason why my picture (gravatar) with Nonoy Baclao suddenly disappeared, I saw this theme with these old books and stuff. I was so happy (yuck! exaggerated naman)! Haha. And suddenly I felt this urge to blog about it. Hence, entry number 25.

Actually I am on my way to my Post-Chem class now. And I actually have to drag myself away from my laptop just to make it on time. And oh, by the way, I am submitting my candidacy form this afternoon. Not for the national elections. Haha. Ang corny. I plan to run as an officer  in the Ateneo Special Education Society. I dunno what has gotten into me that I suddenly wanted to become one of the ‘officials’. But oh well, I am submitting it now so I guess there’s no backing out na.

This running thing completely amazes me. Why did I even think of joining the race in the first place? Maybe just for the thrill of it? Or maybe I really want to lead and stuff. Or maybe, I’m just really such a crackpot knowing that I’d be having OrgChem next year, and still interested in loading myself with stuff that I am sure would make my oh-so-hectic sched more nakakaiyak.

Or maybe it’s just as simple as, I like the org so much that I want to devout time and effort to make it one of the best.

The last one sounded so ma-drama. But really.Oh I don’t know. Come what may.

[24] PBA and some basketball stuff

In all honesty, I never liked PBA. Not that I hate it, I wasn’t just as interested. It looked so mature before. And so physical. I am a big fan of basketball, yes, but I only get to focus on PBL and UAAP/NCAA.

Today was a whole lot different story. I turned my tv on, switched the channel to RPN, and saw Larry Fonacier. And LA Tenorio. And Joe deVance. And Jay Washington. And Gabby Espinas. And help me Lord, there was JC Intal too. My UAAP/NCAA babies have all graduated and are now pros. What can I say? I have to shift league too, then?

JC Intal

Larry Fonacier

 

It has been months since I felt this surge of excitement. (UAAP has retired so soon, I have to wait months before it comes back). Well, going back, it’s the kind of excitement that you only get to feel when you’re so into something. I guess in my other lifetime, I am a basketball player. I don’t know really, but it’s something I am really passionate about. Like so much emotions are there whenever I watch a game, may it be live or not. Had I been Hindu, I’d be reincarnated as a ball. Or as court. Or a ring maybe. Allow the gods to decide. By the way I do not play. I just WATCH. And scream.

I remember my high school days when I used to cry real hard whenever Ateneo loses in any of its games. Or whenever a player gets injured or whatever. I would lock myself in my room and not talk to anyone ‘coz I am utterly depressed to death

Insanity, I know.

I’m just happy I’m now starting to like PBA. I’m screaming and cursing and jumping and all that.

And here’s a proof of how crazy I can be whenver I watch basketball, good thing my laptop is in front of me to capture all these emotions. Here’s what my notepad contains during  the Alaska – Sta.Lucia game last January 11:

paolo trillo tv commentator! shitgago ang gwapo

alaska na si larry!
teammates sila ni la.
ano ba talaga si jc? ginebra o san miguel? nakakalito kasi.
and macky?
how about doug? still on honeymoon?
hahaha
labo

shit ang pogi ni dela cruz from alaska aces.
oh oh! willy miller pala is larry’s teammate!
and joe devance!!!

crap! scoreless @ 8.51 of first qtr.!!! gago

and thoss.

tae wlang rumerebound!!!!
ano naaaa???? shit shit shit score @4.30 3-13. shall alaska lose?

GET HOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!

oh!!! it’s tony dela cruz?
toby dela cruz????
sony dela cruz???
whatever. he’s cute.

shit larry is so payat!
but so what, he gave the 10 pt. lead naman.
go king eaaaaaaagle! haylabshooo!!

cariaso is my tito. he is.
4 pts.

lead cut down to 1. pota. nilabas kasi si larry kaya nakakahabol sila williams!!!

-anchored by the great play coming off the bench. (hahaha, si larry bench yan ha, pero sya lead scorer)

shit, wag na ksi si marlou aquino, panahon pa siya ng mom ko!

i love LA forever.
but i love larry more.

alaska just won the game. love.

[23] ang aking bagong usb. bow.

nung december bago mag-christmas break, nawala yung 1gb flash drive ko. nakakadepress kasi siya palagi ang kasa-kasama ko tuwing magpapaprint ako ng papers (dahil wala akong printer sa unit ko) at ng 1×1 pictures tuwing simula ng sem. dami na rin namin napagsamahan. so dahil nga nawala siya, bumili ako ng bago.

love at first sight ako dun sa bagong usb ko. 4gb. tapos sale pa! P400 lang. san ka naman makakakita ng P400 na 4gb tapos transcend pa! so to make the long story short, pinatulan ko talaga! wala nang isip-isip pa, bili kagad!

umuwi ako ng bahay na masaya. may bago na kong usb, malaki ang capacity, at bukod sa lahat, mura pa! so ginawa ko, dahil bumabagal na yung laptop ko ahil sa kadamihan ng mga pictures na nakasave, nilipat ko muna yung ibang files ie, yung pictures sa usb. no problemos dahil 4gb naman. kayang-kayang i-store, sabi ko sa sarili ko.

after ilang araw, naisipan kong mag-upload ng pictures. kinuha ko si usb at sinaksak sa drive.
guess what?
nacorrupt lahat.
ng pictures.
yung pictures nung pumunta ko sa nueva ecija.
yung pictures nung pumunta ko sa lipa, batangas.
yung pictures nung umattend ako ng isang major concert.

sobrang broken hearted ako. nakaka-drain. lahat ng memories ko sa kung san-sang lugar bigla na lang naerase. yung folder kasi ng pics naging 4kb file na lang. hindi ko ma-open kahit anong gawin ko. sobrang sama talaga ng loob ko.

at eto pang mas masakit ha. kahapon lang, nung sinaksak ko yung usb sa drive, pumasok ba naman sa loob yung metal part. tae talaga. fake yung nabili ko. kinorrupt na nga yung pictures ko, nasira pa! to think na tatlong beses ko pa lang yata siya nahahawakan.

hay buhay nga naman. next time talaga, wag nang magtitiwala sa mga mura.
nakakaiyak.

[22] sa 2010…

1. magpapakabit na ko ng wi-fi sa unit ko.

2. bibili na ko ng bagong tv kasi nasira na yung luma ko.

3. bibili na rin ako ng bagong oven toaster kasi obviously nasira din yung luma.

4. tatapusin ko na basahin yung to-be-read pile ko ng books.

5. maghahanap ako ng bagong author na magiging addict ako katulad ng pagsubaybay ko kay julia quinnat kay sandra brown.

6. babasahin ko lahat ng books ni paulo coelho. natapos ko na yung ‘the alchemist’, sobrang nakakainspire

7. hindi na ko magcu-cut sa histo class ko. mamahalin ko ng sobra si sir randolph kahit gano pa s’ya ka-baduy. promise talaga.

8. bibili ko ng book ni danielle steel?

9. hindi na matigas ang ulo ko (talk about generic resolutions!)

10. hindi na ko magsisnungaling sa abot ng aking makakaya (isa pa to!)

11. pupunta ko sa bulacan.

12. babalik ako sa lipa, batangas.

13. pupunta ko sa palawan.

14. gagawa ako ng maraming bahay sa mga nabanggit na lugar.

15. susubukan kong tuparin yung numbers 11-14 by means of GK.

16. magahahanap ako ng bagong shade ng stick foundation ko.

17. kacareer-in ko ang aerobics class ko.

18. chakraborty = L.O.V.E. (oh dear, chem)

19. mas sisipagan ko nang mag-upload ng photos.

20. di na ko masyadong magagalit sa facebook photo uploader. minsan na lang kapag sobrang asar na talaga sa katagalan.

21. longer patience. siyang aking tanging kailangang baguhin talaga.

22. at dahil 18 na ko, more boys! joke lang, my dear.

23. ayusin namin ni ex ang dapat ayusin. let’s go little steps!

24. di na ko kakain ng madaming rice.

25. di na ko kakain ng madaming meat.

26. pero di pa rin ako kakain ng veggies. yaks.

27. DIET na, seriously.

28. more usapang kalyes…with sense. (less rants, i promise)

29. at sa 2010…more spontaneous (and less OC) kat. yes naman!

[21] dahil gusto ko lang mag post

ang daming topics na naka-scribble sa likod ng notebook ko na ang sarap sanang i-blog. pero dahil sa hectic ko na schedule ngayon, mga long tests at kabi-kabilang christmas parties na dapat attendan, hindi ko muna magagawang magblog na madalas.

pero dahil kating-kati na ang kamay ko na magtype sa keyboard at sobrang excited na ko na magkaron ng blog #21, eto na.

nung last week sobrang saya. pumunta kami sa GK Nestle Village sa Lipa, Batangas. first time ko na mag-GK camp. ang sarap pala. bugbog talaga yung katawan ko, yun ba namang maghalo ka ng semento, magbuhat ng mga bato, magpala at magpiko ng lupa…para lang may maitayo kaming bahay para dun sa mga wala. actually hindi natapos yung bahay kasi 2 days lang yung camp, pero at least nasimulan namin.
so yun, madaming bagong naging kaibigan, madaming taong nakilala. pero dahil random post lang to, hindi ko masyado ieelaborate ang angyari dahil plano ko sanang magkaron ng sobrang heart-pinching post para don. with pictures para masaya.

tapos nung isang araw lang, nag christmas party yung summer block ko sa mcdonald’s katipunan. kiddie party yung dating. with matching mcdo crew host at mascot. yung gift na ibibigay sakin wala pa. kasi dadating na lang daw bigla sa condo ko. hinintay ko siya kahapon, pero wala dumating. hay nako charles

nakaintriga yung regalo, kung ano man yun. kasi yung pag introduce dun sa gift eh baka daw magalit ang boyfriend ko pag binigay niya yun. buti na lang sinigaw ni lara na break na kami ni ex. so ano kayang gift ang ibibigay niya na ikakagalit ng boyfriend ko? nakakintriga talaga. at kung ano man yun, sana dumating na. joke lang. mysterious lang talaga.

so yun, merry christmas!

[20] Happy Birthday, Ateneo!

Ateneo de Manila University turned 150 years old today, being established on December 10, 1859. Could i just say that I feel so proud, and lucky, that i got to be part of this really big event. It’s not always that you get the chance to become one of the Sesqui sophies.

We attended the Sesquicentennial Mass at the Church of the Gesu at 12nn today. I realized it was one of the most becoming part of my college life, aside from passing the ACET and being in an honors course. It was such a proud moment, I don’t know why. I guess the mere fact that we were there to represent the Loyola Schools [the College], together with the others representing the Grade School, the High School, and the Professional Schools, was a reason enough to give me goosebumps because in all honesty, I never thought I’d become one of this beautiful community [UST was the original plan]. It was a different kind of feeling and I don’t know how to describe it. Maybe I could just borrow Fr. Ben’s statement, “Ang sarap maging Atenista, pero mas masarap maging Atenista para sa iba.” It’s knowing that you are in a place where they train you to be “men and women for others” is such a humbling experience because you get to realize that you and your wealth doesn’t really matter while you still you see people who are hungry and are dumped in poverty. And so whoever made the notion that Ateneans are just the mayabang people or the just the rich ones surely haven’t felt how it is to be in Ateneo.

Allow me to say it once more,